Irony Manifest

You know, it seems like every time I try to do something brave, out of the Cree-dinary, Loki sticks out his demigodly foot and laughs as I fall on my face. I present you:

1. Sergio. Did the unthinkable and wrote him after meeting him telling him how much I enjoyed it and would like to get together again. BAM

2. The Cousin (not mine). I shirked my usual shyness and said YES, YES I will walk into a situation that scares the crap out of me and defy my own very self. What happened? He brought his new girlfriend into that situation. Bam BAM

3. After not hearing from Dustin all weekend, thinking there could very well be good reasons for that, still I decided to take the bull by the horns and ask when he was going to come take me out. Following on things HE had said, this was not a completely out-there statement. His two-sentence response ignored that part of the e-mail altogether. (In his days of writing, he has always written copiously. Also lists assertiveness as a turn-on.) Who knows what might have resulted had I just waited out the weekend. BAMBAMBAMBAMBAMBAMBAMBAMBAM

Sigh

I was tired of waiting, though. Waiting on someone else's lead. I always wait. I always follow others' leads. I don't want to anymore.

For Emily's new magazine I'm going to see a couple of psychics in town. I wonder if Loki'll show his stupid face.

I am absolute, hard, concrete proof of gods.